I hate credit, and all its rules...

 Greetings from Occupied Territory...

  It's been several years since I've posted, but I found a new place on Fartbook... but, alas... Fartbook disabled my account, for I don't know how long...  Zuckerberg, and his ilk will be made to pay by our Prez.  Again, I'm no fan of Trump, but... results must be admired!  From 2017, to present... my wife and I were doing well!  We'd recovered from Obamunist rule, and started real progress; not this regressive, dystopian nightmare that the Regressive Leftists have tried to foist upon us... 

  Now, thanks to the Chinese Communist Party, and their useful idiots in the Democrat party... We have the CCP virus... They'll call people accusing them of releasing this bug, conspiracy theorists, when videos of Gates, Fauci, and others, show them talking about this as far back as 2015...  They get caught, and they use classic Soviet-esque redirection.  They try to blame my side for their treachery...  Anyway...

  The wife and I are trying to buy a house; we've waited 10 yrs for my credit to climb out of the credit shitpile... Now, we're finally out of that, and my score hits 658...  So, we decided to look for a house.  Because my score isn't as great as it should be, we couldn't qualify for a conventional loan, nor do we have the cash to buy a home.  We've been looking since mid July, but to no avail... We've looked all over, so far... We'd move out further, but I work in Portland, and Toni works with the State... We don't need to be moving so far out...

  The thing about credit I can't stand, is how much of a contradiction it is... 

1. If you have bad credit, you're better off than having no credit... 

2. If you have no credit, you'll have a hard time getting credit...

3. The more credit inquiries you have, the worse it looks on your credit score...

Rules need to change, because these rules are horrible!  Prove me wrong, because you can't!  Shylock has nothing on these predators!  First off, no credit should be better than bad... Second, credit inquiries shouldn't affect your score at all.  And the more inquires should show your interest in acquiring credit, inviting lenders to want to flock to you... Now, if you screw up your credit up, then you should have to go through a redemption period, then you can start over... But, that's not how it is... 30+ years ago, I managed to get a copy of the FCRA scoring system, and I was able to tell a bank manager that they should seriously rethink their denial of my loan application.  The bank manager got pissed off when I showed him that by using his criteria (the same FRCA criteria), he should be offering me a higher loan!  I told him that I'd report him to the FTC, for violating the FRCA... I ended up walking out of the bank with a $5000 loan!  I had started my credit journey!

  I'd manage to pay off most of my loan, then I'd been discharged from the Marine Corps... I went back to Sacramento, and started to live with my ex, Elena... That was a mistake!  She started me on my downward spiral, ruining my credit for at least 19 yrs... Every time I tried to recover my credit, she'd find some way to fuck it up.  It took me another 10 yrs to recover my credit... I paid off a lot of debt, I even contested a lot of debt.  I was able to get some old debt to fall off, and finally see my score get above 600 for the first time, since 1990!!!  

  Now, with my credit above 650, we decided it was time to buy a house... Our combined credit isn't enough to qualify for a conventional loan, so we were able to qualify for an FHA loan... $250k worth.  That, alas... won't buy shit!  Except maybe a shitty, and small house!  Or, something overpriced!  We had a seller approve our application, except that the house was too small, and too expensive for what it was... plus, they wanted $850 a month in flood insurance!!!  Our mortgage would've been over $1500 a month!!!  Toni and I together only make $4k a month, That wouldn't leave much much for bills!  So, we backed out... The search continues.

  Personally, I wanted a trailer in an trailer park... but, no... we don't qualify for that.  I wanted simple, but no... we're not good enough for simple.  As for me, I'm done for now...

Ubuntu and blacklisting... GRR!!!

Greetings from Occupied Territory!!!

It's been awhile since I last posted, so I decided to rant about this.  I purchased this laptop that I've been using, back in 2012.  It's an HP, so it's served me well!  It originally came installed with Windoze 8, version 1, and let me tell you... I DIDN'T LIKE IT FROM THE START!!!  IF I WANTED A TABLET O/S, I'D RUN A STRAIGHT ANDROID TABLET, OR AN APPLE IOS!!! 

Anyway, after tweaking the O/S. I got it to work to my liking, even including a Start Button!  My one critical mistake:  auto updating!!!  If there's one thing that I've learned, is that you NEVER auto update anything!!!  Why, you ask?  Simple... would you let your 5 yr old child venture out into the roughest part of town, after midnight?  Of course, you wouldn't!!!  So, why would you allow your computer to do the same thing?!?!  I somehow, was the receiver of some crap update, that corrupted my Exploder installation.  Without Exploder, Windoze is screwed!!!  This was how Micro$oft was able to beat the Justice Department, and their attempt to slap a Sherman Anti-Trust Suit onto them!
They integrated their crap browser, with code stolen from Mozilla, into their O/S!  Without Exploder, Windoze is screwed!

Anyway, after figuring out what the problem was, I downloaded a copy of Ubuntu 12x, and installed that.  I haven't looked back!  Now, don't get me wrong, Ubuntu has its own set of problems.
Problems like, not always being able to find the drivers for your hardware device.  This isn't a problem that can't be overcame... One way I've learned to overcome this, is to get a copy of the Windoze drivers, and decompiling them, then recompiling them with GCC, and installing them, using apt.  Just because I can do this, doesn't necessarily mean that the average Windoze user, or worse, the
average Mac user, can do this!  Not to worry, though... the Ubuntu community is rather large, and if you do a Google Search, you can always find an Ubuntu group... just post a question into one of the forums, and await your response.  Chances are, there will be several answers to your question!  How's that for service?!?!  You, sure as hell, won't get this from either M$ or Apple!!!

Now, onto the fun part... my internal wifi device, stopped working, and I could't figure out why.  So, I plugged my laptop into the wired Ethernet, and attempted to find out.  After searching, I couldn't find the answer.  So, I ended up purchasing a TP-Link TL-WN727N WiFi usb dongle.  Problem solved, or so I thought... After one of Ubuntu's many security updates, my WiFi dongle stopped working, and I couldn't figure out why.  So again, I did my research.  This time, I found out the problem... apparently, my dongle's chipset, had been blacklisted by Canonical.  Why?  I have no idea why... But, according to various user groups, I've found out what had happened.  Canonical, like Mico$oft, doesn't want you to use legacy hardware, so in an attempt to force users to use updated hardware, and be like the Micro$ofties, they blacklist drivers.  

You're probably wondering how you find this out, right?  Well, you start by opening up a terminal screen, then entering the ls command.  There's different versions to this command, like lspci, or lsusb... these commands let you know what devices are installed.  This is where you're going to have to know something about computers, and if you don't, well RTFM!!!  That's what Usenet is for!
After finding out what type of device you have, you either do an lspci, or lsusb, to locate your device. If you're not seeing it, chances are, it was blacklisted.  How do you find out where this blacklist is?
Start by opening up a terminal, then typing in at the command line: /etc/modprobe.d/blacklist... It may seem like a lot of work, but that's how Linux is; Linux separates the true users, from the casual users! This is where you find out if your driver has been blacklisted.

Well, I found out that my driver was there, and no matter what I would do, I couldn't unblacklist my driver! I sure as hell, didn't want to go out and buy a new dongle, so what did I do? I went ahead, and downloaded 16.04 LTS, and formatted my drive. I lost a lot of data because of this, but it was the only way I could unblacklist my driver! With the new, clean O/S installed, I set out to rebuild my computer. So far, my WiFi dongle driver hasn't been blacklisted (that's because I've been picky as to what I'll install from Canonical!!! I swear, if those jerks blacklist this driver, I'm done with Ubuntu!!!). If it gets blacklisted, I'm running Debian from this point onward! Ubuntu is a Debian derivative, so the transition will be easy.

So, what have we learned? If you're a Mac user, you've learned that you can't handle a complex O/S like Linux, so you choose to stay with an O/S that has training wheels. If you're a Windoze user, chances are, you'll curl up into a fetal ball, and call someone from tech support to help you to understand this... but, the understanding won't be forthcoming! That's okay, because there're plenty of Windoze resources out there for you to use. But, for the truly adventurous, you'll try a live CD. If you like it, you'll go a step further, and get a separate drive, and install it onto the drive, saving the Windoze drive. I did that, but I'm probably going to format that drive one of these days; I just haven't gotten around to it. Anyway, my rant is over... If you want to find out more about blacklisting, follow this link, and read it for yourself! This, and more, can be found! Just keep an open mind!

Enjoy!
http://askubuntu.com/questions/110341/how-to-blacklist-kernel-modules

What the hell am I doing wrong here?

Greetings from occupied territory...

I have no idea what I'm doing here.  The only thing that I'm sure of, is that my wife loves me, and I love her!  I will never leave her again!  The other thing that I'm sure of, is that my cat loves me... he has his moments, but he's a cat; he can be forgiven his shortcomings!  The one thing that I'm sure of here, is that liberals are both closed-minded, and racist.  Ironic, isn't it, especially when you consider how liberals claim they're both open minded, and tolerant!

Oh, how the dark thoughts flow through my troubled mind.  The dark dreams, the visions of the future... the future scares the hell out of me!  Yoda once said: "Always in motion, is the future...", meaning that nothing is set in stone.  Then, why is it, I always see these dark visions of tomorrow? Do you have any idea what it's like to wake up, and dread the day, because the dark visions of tomorrow, are slowly coming to fruition?  How odd, when life imitates art...

My dreams of darkness remind me of a song by Simon and Garfunkel... The Sound of Silence.  Let's interpret the lyrics for a minute, so you'll understand why my visions are so dark...

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools," said I, "You do not know –
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you.
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls
And whispered in the sound of silence.

Here, as I try to rest, and find peace, the darkness envelops me... refusing me my peace.  So, what do I do, I embrace the darkness, and try to understand the why and how of the visions.  

In the visions, I begin to see the darkness, and cold... So, what do I do?  I try to see what's next, and try to understand what's going to happen.  But, the meaning eludes me, because I can't hear what's being said.  I begin to see the mindless masses, moving lips, yet saying nothing.  They're hearing messages, yet they're not listening to the message.  No one bothers to question the message; all acquiesce to the yet unseen messenger!!!  I try to wake people up, and tell them that something is wrong, yet I'm ignored!  The silent masses choose ignorance over knowledge.  They choose the convenience of domination, over freedom! They idolise the messenger as if the messenger were a messiah... Am I the only one awake here?!?!

So, the freedoms that we veterans have sacrificed for, are willingly surrendered by those that have chosen to accept the message.  But, what is the messenger trying to say?  What is the messenger offering, in lieu of freedom?  Ignorance is Strength?  No, it isn't, save for those in power... Freedom is Slavery; only if you're in power, and you convince the masses that they're free, when in reality, you've enslaved them with crushing credit debt.  You've made them indentured servants!  Ultimately, these fools like it!  I'm tired of trying to wake them up...

I'm trying to survive here, but yet again, I'm the victim of bullshit.  When is the war going to start?!?!

School has started, so I have renewed hope...

Greetings from your freedom fighter, in Occupied Territory...



I started school last week, and I'm somewhat happy.  Why not completely happy?  Simple; I have to travel a considerable distance to get here.  It's a private college, but I decided to go through the Bachelor's Program, as opposed to an Associate's... I had planned on transferring to Stanford in order to complete my Ph. D., but the college that I had initially enrolled in, Clackamas Community, had fucked me over with financial aid.  You're wondering why I went to a JC, instead of a university, right?  For those of you that have never attended college, you can usually get classes that you need at a JC (as long as the courses fulfill the catalogue requirements for your major, you're fine, and you won't have to pay as much for the course.), for a lot less. 

This wasn't to be the case at Clackamas.  First off, I submitted my financial aid requests by the application deadline.  When school started, my first allotment of financial aid wasn't available.  WTF?!?!  I then had to apply for a loan from the school in order to pay for books, and I was approved without issue... I continued to follow up with their idiotic rules in order to get approval, yet the problems persisted.  It turns out, that I wasn't the only one that had to deal with this nonsense; I was just more vociferous than the rest of the sheeple... It scared the regressives here so much, they called campus security out on me, for fear that I was going to go postal on them!!!

Anyway, I went through the quarter, and played their silly game by their rules, and completed everything on "their" timetable (basically, when they felt you were ready to be seen by them... condescending asshats!!!).  But, I turned the tables on them (I got a copy of their SOP/rules... and quoted the book to them; they didn't like it, that this beaner could figure out their scam!!!), and made them expedite my request by showing them their procedures!  It pissed them off so much, I ended up having a sitdown with the Dean of Financial Services... I read her the riot act, and advised her that bigger schools in California can do this quicker and more accurately than you do here.  I then asked her, why is it taking so damn long to get this squared away; I was told that they're trying to discourage people from applying for financial aid by delaying it.  I yelled loudly, "Then why the hell do you make it available to us?!?!  Are you trying to give students that can't afford to attend college, a false sense of hope?!?!  If that's the case, then you should be ashamed of yourself!!!  We're trying to better ourselves, but you regressive socialists end up being no better than apartheid-era South Africa!!!  How do you like being compared to that?!?!" 

Needless to say, my reaction to this didn't go over well with the school... On a good note, the Assoc. Dean of Arts and Science cut me a break on my tuition.  He had heard of my plight (initially, a complaint had been filed by one of my instructors... She said that I was stalking her, but it was later discovered by the Dean, that I had business in that building at the time she said I was stalking her... This dumb bitch has some serious Daddy issues!!!), and cut my costs by 50%, and I thought that was cool.  I had garnered a lot of sympathy with the staff, but it was for naught...

So, when school ended in December, I found out a week before finals, that I had been denied for financial aid!!!  So, these assholes denied me, and fucked with me that whole time!  Wow!!!  What a surprise!!!  Do these people think that I'm just some uppity Mexican, willing to put up with whatever bullshit they give me?  Do they think that I'll acquiesce, and settle for their table scraps?!?!  Fuck no, I won't!!!  I'm too smart to let a bunch of racist libtards do this to me, and I won't!!!  The socialist apartheid system will be brought down, and not by peaceful means!  They've precipitated this disaster, yet they refuse to accept the consequences of their actions!  They insist that they're fair, but I say different!  They don't want someone like me telling them what I am... They insist that I fit into their little box that they've created for me... FUCK THAT!!!  I'M NOT A CRAYOLA, NOR AM I SOME LITTLE ASS KISSER THAT WILL ACQUIESCE TO THEIR DEMANDS!!!  I'M A FUCKING WARRIOR, AND WHEN THE TIME COMES, THERE WILL BE A FIGHT... but, make no mistake, I won't be the one starting the fight, but I will be there on the front lines... My ass hanging over the FEBA!!!  And, I sure as hell, won't be the only one there, either!

The balloon is slowly inflating, and the orchestra is tuning up to play the melody of war... I know that I'm being watched, but I don't care!  Let them come; I've waged war before!

Do any of you know what it's like to be a genius?

Greetings from occupied territory!

Does anyone here have any idea of what it's like to be a genius?  Most people probably think that it's probably easy, and that the world is your oyster!  Not!!!  You see, with genius, comes it's associated issues: ADD/ADHD!  You see, genius can be seen almost as a disability by normal people.  Why? Simple: with the ADHD, it becomes difficult, if not impossible, to deal with normal people!  Since I've been in Oregon, I've been surrounded by stupid people... hard to believe, but it's true!  I thought that since this area has a large college educated populace, the people would be smarter... Not so!  If there's anything that I've learned from my time in Oregon, education doesn't equate to intelligence! Sure, there's a large number of people with post graduate degrees, but that doesn't necessarily mean they're smart.

What it does mean, is that they've played the game, kissed the right amount of ass, and got their degree.  I've done this as well, but since I've been attending school up here, I just haven't felt that level of motivation that I did in California... It also doesn't help when the school you're attending dicks you around with your financial aid.  Since I've been attending school here, I felt that they've been deliberately trying to dumb me down.  And, because of this, I'm rather angry!  What the hell happened to academic and intellectual freedom?!?!  I'll tell where it's gone... it's gone down the toilet!!!

It's pretty bad when it's become a moral crime to say Merry Christmas... Recently, while at school, I had someone say to me, "Happy Holidays..."  I responded by saying: "Merry Christmas!"  She repeated herself, as did I.  She then said to me that I shouldn't say that; I replied: "Who died, and made you the arbiter of free speech?!?!"  She also said this back, and I said to her names of those that died in defence of her right to say stupid shit like this.  Needless to say, she didn't like it!  Like I give a shit!  I don't care about your PC... your PC is nothing more than Newspeak English!!!  And, I won't succumb to this tyrannical attack on academic or intellectual freedom!!!  People, we need to rise up, and reverse this reprehensible trend in our hallowed halls of academia!!!  We need to purge these halls of this Orwellian nonsense once and for all!!!

As to the genius, they've tried to get me to think like they do, but I simply cannot!!!  Why?  Simple: I couldn't think that slow, even if I wanted to!  If I continue my educational path up here, I'm going to have to start medicating myself again.  That way, I can halfway tolerate these ignorant liberal retards!!!  I'm sure you'll agree, libtards tend to think that they're smarter than everyone else, yet fall flat on their faces when their policies are exposed as fraudulent!  They don't like being called on their sham policies.  To question them, is to risk being called homophobic, racist, misogynistic, sexist, etc... You know what, to counter this, we need to be resolute in our actions and beliefs that we're right!  We need to defeat their intelligentsia ideology with ideas that work... Show how foolish they are!  When you counter their voodoo logic with common sense and facts, they quickly retreat from the light!  Cockroaches will do that!

It's either we do it this way, or the way I've been advocating for quite some time: revolution!  And, not the kind of revolution that the regressives want... war!!!

Greetings from Occupied Territory!  As each day goes by, I'm bouyed by the fact that my words are as destructive as explosives on a railroad track!!!


Last night, I felt a little sarcastic, and decided to write a letter to a mythical president, in a mythical country... Here it is:

From the desk of Aaron M. Freeman

To: I.B. Zurückgeblieben

President of the Republic of Fucktardia

Greetings Mr. President,

I hope that all is well within the borders of your fine republic. They must be, if you're there, and not here! I must say, that I've visited your fine nation several times whilst under the influence of several mind altering chemicals, and I still preferred it here in my good ol' US of A! Yes, I know, I've heard you rail on about the perceived injustices in this country. I have to agree with you, there are injustices, but those injustices that cite were caused by your allies in the Democrat party...

Mr. President, I know how much you admire our capitalist system... you admire it so much, you've sent your intelligence operatives here to disrupt it! I've personally seen them infiltrate our private sector employers, and have gained employment within the various financial houses within this nation. I've also seen how they've manipulated the futures markets, the bond markets, as well as the stock market... all to benefit you, and your allies within the Democrat Party. I've seen how your operatives have also manipulated the real estate market; man, you must be rolling in the dough after that fiasco!

I also have seen what you've been doing to our so called forth estate! I've seen your operatives at work there as well, writing stories that discredit America, and apologise for American exceptionalism, and our rugged individualism. I bet, that it bugs you to no end, that America has survived so long, and hasn't collapsed under the weight of our tyrannical capitalist system!!! I know you think we're nothing more than colonialists or imperialists, but nothing could be further from the truth! From what I've seen during my previous visits to your nation, you prefer a Marxist form of government, one where the dictatorship of the proletariat has been replaced by the intelligentsia elite. I know that you value and stress conformity, and I know how you prefer the collectivist mindset, with you in charge, of course!

The sad thing is, that all these regimes end up collapsing under their own weight! Take Romania for example... It was a nation, similar to your own, but with more restrictions on freedom (I know how much you hate freedom, Mr. President, but I know you value your position as President for Life... so, you tolerate some freedoms...). In the end Ceausescu, the dictator of Romania, was executed! A similar fate befell East Germany, except that the East Germans didn't execute their leader, Erich Honecker... I believe he fled to Chile in exile. But, I know you, Mr. President... you, you're a survivor, and you'll do anything, say anything... all to retain power!

I believe, that the Republic of Fucktardia is well-served by you, Mr. President... but, could you do this American an favour? Could you cease and desist your intelligence operations here? I only ask, because you really don't want me coming back to your country, do you? I mean, think about what I could do to your nation, by simply exposing the citizens of your fine nation to a little American culture? You've spent your entire political career demonising America as a decadent perversion, or an example of what happens when the revolution fails! See, here's the thing; our revolution didn't fail... it succeeded! In fact, it continues to succeed, in spite of your intelligence operations within my nation! In fact, in spite of the successes of your intelligence operations, you now realise that you're losing ground to the American Revolution, and now you fear that all you've worked so hard to undo, is about to undo all you've worked so hard for!!! So, with that said, it's a small favour to ask. Can you help a guy out with this?

Anyway Mr. President, I will write again, because I'm well-aware of the fact that your nation has censored the internet, and the media, but surprisingly... not the mail! I'd send you a message via email, but your secret police would intercept it, and consider it to be subversive! I wouldn't want that, and I'm sure you really want to continue the correspondence with a Real American! So, have a great day, and try not to get yourself overthrown... eventually, all good things must end!

Sincerely,

Aaron M. Freeman

April showers, brought May flowers... But, when am I going to get my bouquet?

Greetings from Occupied Territory...

I started this blog a couple of years ago, with the hopes of documenting my thoughts while in NW Oregon.  I thought that when I first came here, it would be so much better than California... Boy, was I sadly mistaken!  Whenever you hear of the Left, and how "tolerant" they claim to be, know that it's nothing but a lie.  Why do I say it's a lie?  Simple; they're only tolerant, as long as your ideas don't interfere with their preconceived opinions!

With regards to racism, the Portland area is by far, one of the most racist in the country... yes I said it, Portland is a bastion of racism!  If you don't believe me, even National Report says so (http://nationalreport.net/portland-oregon-deemed-racist-city-united-states/), as does this person (http://browninpdx.tumblr.com/)... At one time, Lake Oswego, OR had the dubious nickname of Lake No Negro.  Now, why would an affluent community like Lake Oswego have such an intolerant nickname?  Simple; they were racists, and still are!!!  That isn't to say that the Black community (I won't deign to call them African-American, because the term is oxymoronic... Would a white Afrikaner woman from South Africa, becomes an American citizen... Does this make her African-American?  Or how about the Arab from Morocco?  Same situation... Does that make that person, African-American? It should, because they came directly from the continent of Africa; but sadly, it isn't the case!!!) has made strides towards equality, especially those that adopt the Leftist Agenda.  Because they chose to cave into "Whitey's demands," they get the table scraps of the Leftist White table!  Wow... how does it feel, knowing that you've just compromised all of your principles, just to collect table scraps?!?!

Let's get real, people... The Black Community for all intents and purposes, is very conservative!  There are those of you that say otherwise, but I know better!  When I was younger, I attended an AME Baptist Church in Olivehurst, CA.  My neighbours (and subsequently, my best friends at the time) were Black, and I understand how they are!  They're family oriented, faith based, and Mom and Dad won't put up with bullshit from the kids!  Kids that were bad, got their asses beat... plain and simple!  This recent phenomenon of Blacks collecting welfare, and living the "gangsta life," is something that occurred within the last 50 years!  With the advent of the Great Society, Blacks within the urban areas were fed a line of bullshit that helped to create this dependence!  Now, the Gangsta Lifestyle is part of our pop culture.  It's a phenomenon I'd honestly like to see pass, just like Haley's Comet.

What about us Latinos?  It's much worse for us up here, because we're different from the Leftist Whites.
We don't speak English as our first language (I'm not including myself, for I was born in California, and my first language is English, even though I was raised within the culture... I served in the U.S. Marine Corps, and I consider America my home! This place is something that I put my ass on the line to defend, with my life, if necessary!), and our traditions aren't exactly WASPy traditions!  We're Catholic, not Protestant.  We're brown, not white.  We're loyal to our families, in spite of the fact that we have family members that are complete assholes... We work hard to provide for our families, in spite of the ungrateful children we may have.  We also work hard to instill virtues into our children; virtues like the value of working hard, thrift, personal responsibility, the value of family, and faith!

It seems that these values, are almost nonexistent within the Leftist White community here, for I've seen families destroyed by drugs, alcohol, and premature pregnancy.  Because we have these values, we're often scorned by the Leftist White establishment.  Why?  Simple... we prefer to earn our way, rather than to depend upon them for sustenance, or financial aid.  Because of this, we're often only able to find menial work, all because the Leftist Whites just don't understand how it is this Mexican guy is willing to work longer than this White guy...

As for me, I'm unique... I don't fall into the category of Hispanic (I do, but according to them, I don't), because I don't have a Spanish surname, or a Spanish accent.  Because I look Hispanic, I often have to deal with condescending Leftist Whites here.  They'll try to speak Spanish to me; what shocks the hell out of them (and is a constant source of vindictive amusement to me...), is when I respond in either German, or French!!!  Or, even better... English!!!  When I respond in English, they're even more shocked that a Hispanic can speak their language better than they can!  What's even more disturbing to them, is that I'm better educated than they are!!!  At first, this was amusing, but as my time stretched into years, it has grown offensive!  When you're in a foreign country, do you try to speak English to them, or do you try to speak the language that they speak there?  The USA has become unique in this regard, because of the Leftist notion of amnesty for illegals!

Leftist Whites don't want to do the menial work, so they leave it to the illegals.  This is something they turn a blind eye to, and for good reason... They want to destroy our country, the same way the ANC destroyed South Africa!  As an American, I find these Leftist Whites to be offensive, and should be prosecuted for their intolerance!  Before you start thinking that I'm racist, know this... I'm not!  My wife is White (Italian), my ex is White, and the majority of my friends in California are White!  All of my girlfriends have been White, though I have had interludes with ladies of different ethnic persuasions! So, with that being said, these are only observations I've made since I've been here.  And, unless the Leftist White establishment stops this nonsense, Oregon will continue on its downward spiral into economic morass.

Progressives... intellectuals, or pseudo intellectuals?

Greetings from Occupied Territory...
It's been awhile.
Anyway, since I've been here, I've constantly run into Anglos that somehow think they're intellectually superior to me.  Okay, I'll let you believe that, right up to the point where I embarrass you through debate.  You see, the "Progressive" thinks that he/she is intellectually superior to any racial minority.
Why?  Simple... they're under the impression that they're here to help me...  Really?  What have you done for me, besides fuck me out of work?!?!  Absofuckinglutely nothing!!!

As I've stated in the past, I'm an IT professional, with a degree in Computer Science.  Here it seems, I'm not  mentally capable of performing any IT work whatsoever... Or, that I should be doing something menial, like labourer or landscaping.  Sorry, but I was never meant for that, so you need to recognise this!  I came up here with the hopes that I could have a new life with the love of my life, but only part of that has happened.  The new life with the love of my wife...  I need to find a way to secure funds, so that I can get the certification I need, so these assholes can't refuse me!!!

At the moment, the only certification I have, is a non-expiring CompTIA A+ which I got back in 2002.  It has served me well, but I need more certs!  My Cisco and my Microsoft certs have long expired, and because of this, I can't find work.  I've got the experience they're looking for, and I demonstrate the proficiency they need... but, unless I have certs, they won't consider hiring me.  Or, maybe it's because I'm Latino... If that's the case, then I'm not surprised!  Portland has been called a racist town, not by me, but by National Review (http://nationalreport.net/portland-oregon-deemed-racist-city-united-states/)... In doing research, I've found sites that have said the same thing about that place.  Still, I've grown incredulous knowing this... I found this as well, and I thought the writer of the blog was spot on!!! (http://www.7stopsmag.com/street-level/the-state-of-whiteness/) Anyway, my question is, how do we change the mindset here?

I'm tired of trying to be nice to people that are intellectually inferior to me!  I'm tired of sugar coating things for people that can't handle the truth.  I'm tired of a lot of things here; when can I leave, or better still, when will the civil war finally start?!?!  I'm also tired of polishing a turd... No matter what you do with it, it's still a turd!!!

So, why do I stay?  Simple, I can't afford to move away from this hellhole... If I had the cash to take the cert exams, I'd get certed, then get a job, then get my lovely wife and I, the fuck out of Dodge!!!  As to the title of this blog; are Progressives intellectuals?  From my experiences here in Portland, not no, but hell no!!!  Again, I'm tired of dealing with people who are intellectually inferior to me!  It sucks being a genius when you're surrounded by fucking morons!!!  No one can appreciate the gift you have, because they're too busy drooling over themselves, contemplating in groupthink, how best to ruin other peoples lives...

Is Law Enforcement abusive? Hell yes, it is!!!

Greetings from from your Freedom Fighter in Occupied Territory...

During this week, I've made several posts on Facebook with regards to Chris Dorner.  Several of my conservative friends got mad at me for assuming that I supported all of Dorner's actions.  Nothing could be further from the truth!  As I stated in a post on Facebook, I am a Libertarian... This means that I'm not conservative, though I often support their views.  In order to return to a libertarian rule, you have to get there through conservative means.  I did support his actions against the LAPD though, because if anyone is familar with the LAPD or any CA Law Enforcement agency, you know how bad they can be.  I've seen the abuses from both sides of the badge, but I wasn't in a position to be Frank Serpico... But, I've been a vocal opponent to corrupt Law Enforcement practices.  I'm often quick to point out things that I notice the cops are doing.  I'm going to piss off my conservative friends yet again, but I've got to say this... There are many of you that are supporters of  Law Enforcement, and Law and Order.  As such, you're insulated to some of the excesses of Law Enforcement.  A lot of you assume that because the cops are constantly somewhere, it must be a bad area.  Or, how people are constantly under Law Enforcement scrutiny because of their actions.  Nine times out of ten, you would be right, but it's that tenth time where you see things as they are. How many times have the cops just forced their way into someone's house without a warrant?  In CA, every day!  In Sacramento for example, as soon as you open the door, the cops often force it open as soon as you open the door.  Their justification?  They'll claim exigent circumstances... the problem with that, is that like the truth, it can be hyper-extended!!!  How many people have been murdered by Law Enforcement in the last few years in CA?  I don't know the exact numbers, but I know it's a large number!  Do they ever get prosecuted?  No, they don't, and they should...

Now, back to the blog.  As you all know Chris Dorner, former Police officer with LAPD, and Naval Officer... May have been killed in a pitched battle with the San Bernardino County Sheriff's Department.  The cops killed him... Period, end of statement!  Why do you think they killed him?  Maybe he had some evidence against them, and had to silence him permanently.  Until they're able to ID the corpse they found, he's not dead.  As for the wallet they found, isn't it convenient that his wallet survived the fire?  I thought that the cabin had a basement or was raised on pedestals?  If so, there'd be plenty of air circulation, and everything would've been burned beyond recognition.  And the fire... I've seen structure fires, and usually they burn with either white or grey smoke.  That one, burned with black smoke.  Whenever something burns black like that, an accelerant is used.  Too many things that make you go hmmm...

What's my point?  My point is that we as a community, need to stand up to this aggression now, peacefully... Start the ball rolling, force the changes to happen!  Law Enforcement is incapable of policing itself, so we need to get more citizens involved with observing Law Enforcement in action, and help change policy. They don't want to change, so we in the community need to change them!  But, the question is: will they honour their oaths of office, and protect the community from the Feds?  LE is not your friend, and contrary to what their PAO says.  Make no mistake about it, when the Feds finally repeal the 2nd Amendment, the cops will come, and they look forward to it!  I spoke with a few deputies with Clackamas Co. Sheriff's Department, and asked them.  Only one deputy declined to answer, stating that we don't get into politics while on duty.
Another deputy, probably a detective, said that if the order came down, they'd do their job... I asked him then, if they felt if people would stand against them; he said probably, but they had contingency plans to deal with them (a la Dorner...).  I told him, when they do, they should be prepared to deal with trained combatants engaging them.  He didn't think that was a problem.  I then said to him, he shouldn't be so cocky, because even the best laid plans often go to hell during the first 5 minutes of contact.  They're terrified of dealing with real warriors!  And, with all of the guys and gals returning home from Iraq and Afghanistan, there's going to be a lot of combat vets... No wonder Napolitano called us possible terrorists!

How will we deal with this threat?  First off, we don't hole up anywhere where they can burn you out.
Second, you need to organise into cells, and stash weapons there.  You'll need explosives, anti tank weapons, ammo, and kit.  You need to get as physically fit as you can.  You need to familiarise yourself with small unit tactics, fire and manoevre warfare.  You need to familiarise yourself with how to use explosives, and how to use various weapons systems.  Why?  Because, when the time comes, you and your cell will have to operate independently from other groups, and you're going to have to bring unconventional warfare to them when the time is right.  As it stands now, not everyone is supporting Law Enforcement.  And, with agencies getting block grants from DoD and weaponry from them, they're only going to get more brazen and arrogant!  I've asked this question before: when the time comes, will you stand against a tyrannical regime, or will you just be content to accept the decrees of a tyrant?  I'm not going to surrender to them... but then again, I'm not going to war just yet!  The time is almost upon us, and those in Law Enforcement will be made accountable to the communities they're sworn to protect and serve.  And, I wouldn't want to be them when the community rises against them!!!

Civil War... can it happen again?

Greetings from a freedom fighter in Socialist Occupied Territory!


Civil war... wow!  We've come this far, and now the term is being heard more now.  Does this scare you?
The former Marine in me isn't scared, but is in fact, looking forward to it!  But, the father in me is terrified of this prospect!  I've been trying to educate my children on current events, but it would seem that they're being willfully ignorant.  Then again, they're in California; education has gone downhill to the point of avalanche!!!
Things have gone downhill since the coronation of the Dear Leader, and will only get worse.

During the reign of the Clintonistas, there were murmurs of war back then.  Especially after the whole Ruby Ridge fiasco.  Granted, Randy Weaver is an unrepentant white supremacist, but he still has rights under our constitution!  His kids and wife shouldn't have died, and his son should've gotten a medal for defending his mother!  The ATF and FBI shooters in this whole affair should've been prosecuted.  But, because they're federal law enforcement officials, they're of the opinion that they're exempt from prosecution!  Lon Horiuchi, the FBI sniper that killed Weaver's wife, I believe was finally charged with voluntary manslaughter.  Sadly, the Feds intervened, got the charges dropped, and the State of Idaho didn't bring up the charges again.

Back to the possibility of civil war... will it happen?  Hell yes, it will!!!  Why?  Because the Federal Government under Comrade Barack, has usurped the Constitution on several occasions.  He's used his so called Czars to implement his agenda, bypassing Congress!  He's issued so many Executive Orders whenever Congress failed to move his agenda forward, that he's in violation of the Supremacy Clause of the Constitution.  It's no wonder that people haven't pushed for impeachment sooner!  Especially all of the birthers!!!

People, don't worry about the war!  War isn't the thing we have to worry about!  What we have to worry about are those out there that have gone out of their way to advance an agenda that isn't American!  I've heard so Leftists say that we're a centre left country; not true... we're centre right!!!  They say that we want nationalised health care... I beg to differ!!!  We don't want it, nor do we want Obamacare!!!  Do we want gun control?  They seem to think so!  They think they know best how to live our lives than we do!  Soon enough, they're going to find out the hard way, how we feel about their designs for our nation!

Will the UN get their agenda passed this time?

Greetings from Occupied Territory...


In March, the UN will bring up for a vote their insidious Arms Trade Treaty(http://www.un.org/disarmament/convarms/ArmsTradeTreaty/).  Now, the question is... will they get it passed there?  The answer is yes, they will!  They'll get it passed in their body, but will the U.S. Senate ratify the treaty?  Among the majority of the Democrats in the Senate, the liberals will vote to support the ratification of this.  But, how many Republicans will support this?  There's a good possibility that the Republicans and a minority of Democrats aren't going to support it.  But, will this kill this law?  Probably not, because the Dear Leader will just use Executive Fiat to order it passed.

There have been several in the House that said they'd file Articles of Impeachment if he tries it.  Will they have the testicular fortitude to do this?  The delegation from Texas have already said they would.  We can count on the delegation from Wyoming, Utah, and Montana.  Hell, we can even count on some of the delegation from California to support those willing to file!  In spite of what most think they know about California, California is probably the reddest of the Red States!  But, you'd never know it from how loudly the idiots from LA or from the Bay Area scream!  As someone from California, I can tell you that California is very conservative!  It's more purple than either blue or red...

The whole State of Jefferson started in California, and southern Oregon bought into it... But, I digress!
When the UN gets their agenda through, they're going to expect their agents provocateur to keep the ball rolling.  The UN and Socialist International are going to expect results soon, and the Dear Leader is working hard to do this as I speak.  How can we, simple Americans, combat this kind of tyranny?  Simple... but it's going to take some difficult choices on your part!

Step 1. You have to come to the conclusion that the U.S. Government has been compromised to the globalists.  As of late, our government has been involved with some questionable actions involving the UN, and I find this trend rather disturbing.  There's been a move towards global governance, and this goes against everything that our Founding Fathers stood for!  Perhaps you've heard of the government at all levels getting involved with sustainability issues, and smart growth?  This is all part of the UN's Agenda 21, the smart growth initiative.  There's nothing smart about this, nor is there any growth to speak of.  In fact, it encourages the exact opposite of growth... it seeks to take away from you, your very rights to own private property!

Step 2. You have to say to yourself, that enough is enough!  This is the beginning of political actualisation; where you realise that all you've been lead to believe has been wrong!  Things that teachers were teaching you in school about the Constitution (the contradictory things like how the Founders were bad...), the USA, and the environment.  It then becomes your responsibility to unlearn all this enculturation (for a better understanding of what enculturation is, read this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enculturation), and strive for a better epistimology (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Epistemology), or a better way of thinking!

Step 3. Choose to take a stand against tyranny!  Now that you've done the first two steps, this is where you have to ask yourself: where do I stand?  If you're like me, you're mentally and emotionally prepared to do whatever it takes to stand against this!  But, I'm also prepared to do more than the average person is willing to do.  I'm prepared to make the ultimate stand against tyranny, and put my ass on the line once again in defence of an ungrateful nation!  I'm not going to be alone in this struggle, for there are thousands of like minded people out there!  If you don't believe me, all you have to do is look at Facebook to see what I'm talking about!

The sad thing about this whole ordeal is that this struggle isn't going to be an All American affair; oh no! Make no mistake about it, the Socialists worldwide have been working behind the scenes for the last 100 plus years to make their Socialist Workers' Paradise a reality!  They've been following the Trotsky playbook, reading Marx, masturbating to Mao, or preaching Alinsky!!!  No matter what they believe, they're going to come here to finalise their conquest!  But, thousands of people like me, have chosen to stand with for the Constitution.  As for our military, they will also stand with their brothers in arms, and fight for America!

Is this the twilight of our beloved Republic?

Greetings from the Authoritarian Socialist Pacific Northwest!!!




Due to the spate of recent "massacres" here, it would seem that the vocal minority of authoritarian socialists feel empowered and emboldened to action!    With the theft of the election by Comrade Barack the Dear Leader, they feel that now is the time for the destruction of our Republic by any means necessary.  So now, we have what appears to be the unification of all the diverse Leftist groups under the banner of gun control movement.  They're not going to stop until they've repealed the 2nd Amendment.  And, the Dear Leader has threatened to do something next month.  The question is: what is he going to do?  He's been known to use his executive fiat to bypass Congress to usurp the Constitution, and I'm thinking that he might do just that.  If he does this, he's in direct violation of the Constitution, and will be subject to impeachment for his actions.  But, will the House have the testicular fortitude to bring up Articles of Impeachment against him, and will the Senate have the testicular fortitude to convict him?

I have been telling everyone that I know that war is all but imminent here.  But, it would seem that it has fallen on deaf ears.  It would also seem that the Dear Leader also wants war, but why?  I've come to the conclusion that he thinks that if war happens, he can institute martial law and further usurp the Constitution.  One small problem: there's no love lost between him, law enforcement and the military.
What will they do if he orders the 2nd Amendment null and void?  Will they follow orders, or will they stand down and stay out of this fight?  If they do, I feel that the Dear Leader will attempt to enlist the help of the UN.  If they do, I'm certain that this will galvanise patriots, all patriots to action.  The Dear Leader has sent word, through his agents, to start the confiscation already through buyback programs.
Where are they getting the money from?  Could it be that our recent financial issues stem from the whole LIBOR scandal?  Could it be that the vast Left Wing conspiracy finally has enough power and resources to take us down?  They seem to think so.

Leon Trotsky at one time during his exile in Mexico said that the US was an armed camp, and that ownership of firearms is prized, and skill with the firearm was valued.  He then said that the communists couldn't confront us directly because we'd destroy them.  But, he also said that they needed to surround this country with hostile neighbours (Mexico, Cuba, Canada, and the rest of Latin America...).  Then, distract us with politically pointless issues (Abortion, gun control, environmental issues, gay rights, animal rights, and the plethora of liberal issues...).  And finally, like an over-ripened fruit, we'd rot from within... destroying ourselves.  Is what's happening now, the end game of this Trotskyist plot?  Yes, it is...

You're probably wondering, can we recover from this, our darkest hour?  I say, yes we can!  How?
Simple... We keep working within the system, discrediting the Left.  They believe they have a monopoly on the media.  The only thing they control is TV and print media; they don't control the Internet or radio.  But, they're trying to gain control of both of those as we speak.  The other thing we do to counter them, is to do to them what they did in Egypt... Use the tools of socialist revolution to destroy the socialists!  If we can't do this, what else are we left with?  Civil war.  Like Trotsky before had said "not believing in force is the same as not believing in gravity..."  So, to those that feel war isn't the answer, guess again...

Again, using Trotsky's example: "The depth and strength of a human character are defined by its moral reserves.  People reveal themselves completely only when they are thrown out of the customary conditions of their life, for only then do they have to fall back on their reserves..."  What do you think that he was saying?  I think he was telling us that we don't know what we're capable of until we're tested.  And, ladies and gentlemen... this is the test!  Do we have the intestinal and testicular fortitude to fight for our country?  There are many that do, and I count myself as part of that number.  The thing you now have to ask yourself is: do I count myself as part of this number?  Are you willing to do what is necessary to save your country from this socialist nightmare?  If you do say yes, you'll be no better than those that stood up when they signed the Declaration of Independence.  But this time, you'll be signing your Declaration of Independence from government intrusion!

Now, you have to ask yourself: What's more important?  Freedom, or the convenience of domination?!?!

Tragedy at a mall...

Greetings from occupied Socialist territory!

On Tuesday, the unthinkable happened at Clackamas Town Centre (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/12/11/clackamas-town-center-shooting_n_2280786.html).  Some Portland dipshit named Jacob Roberts (http://www.oregonlive.com/clackamascounty/index.ssf/2012/12/clackamas_town_center_shooting_41.html), walked into the mall, went up to the food court, and opened fire... He fired 60 rounds, and succeeded in killing 3, including himself.  He also managed to wound a 15 year old girl.  He was said to have been armed with an AR-15, and wearing a load bearing vest filled with magazines.  The miracle of the situation was that his weapon managed to jam, and he was unable to clear it in time to shoot more people.  He finally managed to clear the weapon long enough to do Clackamas County the courtesy, and shot himself!

Who was this guy?  His name was Jacob Roberts, and he was 22 years old.  He recently broke up with his girlfriend, and started to sell off all of his worldly possessions!  That should've been the first clue that something was wrong... This is usually the first sign that someone wants to end it all.  Getting things in order is another sign.  I'm curious if they found a suicide note or not...  What's funny in this whole affair is the fact that his friends had no clue that he was going to do this, and that he had stolen an AR-15!  Again, thank God that he didn't have full knowledge on how to properly use this weapon!

The weapon in question is an AR-15.  In the hands of a trained person, this weapon can be devastating!  If you're familiar with fields of fire, fire discipline, and other combat tactics, death to the enemy is all but certain.
But, in the hands of an untrained person, you're probably going to do more harm than good!  The shooter's ultimate demise was the malfunction of the weapon due to jamming.  He didn't know how to clear the weapon, and paid for that mistake with his life.  In the Marine Corps, they train you extensively and exhaustively on how to use that rifle!  They teach you how to clean it, how shoot it, how to disassemble and reassemble it blindfolded!  Hell, they even tell you to give your weapon a name!  By the time recruit training is finished, you've cleaned your rifle countless times, and you know the weapon intimately inside and out!
And, the one thing that they train you on is the most important: immediate action drills!

When your weapon malfunctions, you perform immediate action.  There's a whole set drill you do to a mnemonic known as SPORT Fire... 1)S is for slap up on the magazine. 2)P is for pull the charging handle.
3)O is for observe the ejection port to see if the casing or live round has cleared the breach.  4)R is for release the charging handle, allowing the bolt to chamber another round. 5)T is for tap on the forward assist to seat the round in the chamber, and 6)Fire the weapon... I don't know about the Army, or how they conduct this drill, but I do know how the Marine Corps does it.  I left Boot Camp in November of 1987, and I still remember how to do this!  I'm just glad, as are others that were that day, that he didn't know how to perform this drill!

Now, this happened a couple of days ago, and as is typical after a tragedy like this... political vultures swoop down to pick at the bodies from the tragedy!  I mean, the parasitic Regressives couldn't even wait until after the funerals to move for more gun control!!!  Get real!!!  The first thing this idiot did wrong was to steal the rifle from a friend!  Yes, he STOLE THE RIFLE FROM A FRIEND!!!  What gun control law would've prevented that?  None!!!  The next gun control law he broke was to violate the gun free zone of the Mall... a lot of good that did, right?  Then, he started shooting at people... discharging a firearm within the urban areas is kinda frowned upon, so there's another!  So, let's see, how many did he violate?  By my count, at least 3, but who's counting?  And now, the opportunists want to enact another assault weapons ban, but here in Oregon?  Good luck with that here!

First off, Regressives need to stop smoking so much plumber's crack!  Pot makes you stupid, but plumber's crack makes you permanently stupid!  In other words, you've condemned yourself to a life of mental retardation!  And no, there's nothing "challenging" about being a retard!  You just ARE a retard!  Instead of trying to live our lives for us, why don't you try to live your own life first?  Are your lives so fucked up, that you have to fuck everyone else's lives just to spread the misery?  Be happy with your misery, and keep that shit to yourselves!  I've got enough misery on my own, that I don't need you imposing your misery on me!  Fuck you very much!!!

So, what have learned here today?  We've learned that the Regressives are vultures, opportunistic scavengers that can't wait to feast on the dead of a new tragedy!  We've learned that gun control laws only work on the law abiding.  And, we've also learned that government can't legislate morality!  No matter how many new laws you enact, the criminal will make it his mission to usurp the laws that you enact to "protect" us!!!  Do us a favour, and don't enact anymore laws!!!  If you must do something, why don't you repeal the crap laws that don't work, or leave us alone to live our lives!!!  Just saying!

Greetings from The Socialist Pacific NW...

I can't even begin to tell you how disgusted I am right now!  I should do this more often, for it would seem that I have attracted some attention from outside sources.  Not negative attention mind you, but someone wanted me to write for them.  I sure wish they'd contact me now!  I'd really be interested in doing this full-time!  Anyway, since I've lived in Oregon, I've discovered that this state is ran by liberals; no surprise there, most states are being ran into the ground by them!  I've also discovered that the libs here pride themselves on tolerance... uh yeah, right!  Do they even know what that word means?  Probably not, but let's go with that!
First, they say that they want minorities and women treated fairly.  Okay, this sounds good on paper, but how about in practice?  Who's rules are you using to define your fairness, yours or those are considered socially acceptable in mixed company?  When I say mixed company, I'm referring to liberals and conservatives, working together... unlikely, I know... but I can dream, right?

If we go by socially acceptable rules, then the best qualified person gets the position, regardless of race, creed, colour, sex (I refuse to use gender; not a real word, but a constructed word used to purge the language of thoughtcrime... sex refers to what you are, as well as roles in society; gender is a PC word, whose use is suspect at best... just use sex!), religious preference, or sexual orientation.  If you have the right qualifications, and they like you... well then, good for you!  But, if we used the libtard rules, then those things I described earlier, have been flushed down the toilet!  Here in Oregon, libtards have preconceived opinions about everything, especially race.  I don't know about you, but I'm a Latino, and my experience is unique.  I have an Anglo father, and a Latina mother.  I have my father's last name, and I don't sound like a Latino (stupid question: what the hell is a "Latino" supposed to sound like?  I mean, really... what do "Latinos" sound like?  All the ones I know sound different!).  Plus, I'm educated in a field that "Latinos" don't normally get into.

You're wondering what field, right?  Well, I'm a computer science major, and I've attended Stanford University, San Jose State University, Kaplan College, American River College, and a couple of VoTechs along the way... I don't speak with a Spanish accent (I think this is what they mean by sounding Latino... whatever, I'm from California, and I've heard Latinos with Southern drawls...), and I really despise when someone attempts to speak Spanish with me.  Please!  Don't!  I expect this from Mexicans, because I look like them; to them, I'm Mexican-American..., I speak Spanish, though not as fluent as I'd like.  But, what irritates me more than anything, is when an Anglo comes up to me, and speaks Spanish to me!  Now, if you're from Spain, or learned Spanish in Spain, that's okay!  But, don't condescend and try to speak to me... you may not like what you hear from me!  I've been known to respond in German, French, or Japanese; people don't know how to react to that!  Except once; I had a Frenchman speak Spanish to me, and I responded in French!  He responded back to me in French, and wanted to know where I learned to speak French with such a good accent!  We chatted it up for a couple of minutes, then he left!  Now, he wasn't trying to be offensive, he's proof, that you don't have to be condescending if you're Anglo.

Back to what I was saying about Oregon... I had applied for a job at the University of Oregon, and I had submitted all the documents I needed for the position I applied for.  I received a letter in the mail a month later, stating that I wasn't being considered for the position, and thank you for applying.  I looked further into this, and found out that they terminated my application... Why you ask?  Because, they felt that I was being dishonest on my application!  Really?  Where?  Well, they finally said that it was because they felt I was being dishonest on my EEOC paperwork.  Remember that preconceived opinions thing I spoke of earlier?
This is what I mean; they felt that there's no way that I could be Latino with an Anglo last name, and speaking with accentless English!  Well, I do have an accent, but it's from California... I've been told from people up here that I sound like I'm from California; really?  Wow, I wasn't aware that I had an accent beyond my American English accent!  Whenever people up here hear me speak, they're often blown away that I sound the way I do... for they thought that I would sound like I was a Mexican, and would be unable to speak clear English!  I get this all the time up here, and it irritates me to no end!

So, now you have an idea why I'm so irritated; I'm looking for work, and the powers that be are doing everything wrong with regards to the economy!  Unless they forcibly remove their craniums from rectal defilade, I feel that oxygen deprivation will starve their already small brains of the oxygen needed for higher brain function!

The 53%

Greetings from the Pacific Northwest...

I'm unemployed (at the moment...), and I'm not asking for any handouts. I'm going through a divorce, I'm trying to recover from my ex-wife's economic sabotage, and my kids hate me because I left. I have over $17,000 in student debt from college, but I'm paying it off slowly but surely!!!  I have married my High School sweetheart, and I've been happy!  Now, if only we could get the idiots from Portland to stop screwing up Oregon!!!

Life in Oregon sucks...

Greetings from the Socialist Pacific Northwest...

I have come to the conclusion that Portland, Oregon sucks!!!  Never have I seen so closed minded people in one place at one time!!!  Delusional wouldn't properly describe them!!!

I hate racist liberals!!!

Greetings from Occupied Territory... Here's another thing to add to the reasons why I hate Portland: racism!!! Yes it's true, liberals are as racist as the KKK!!! Hard to believe, but it's true! Since I've been in Oregon, I've experienced racism in a most horrible way! How? Simple, people here have preconceived opinions about how Latinos are supposed to be. Like how we're supposed to be brown, have a Spanish surname, and have Spanish accented English. Sorry, but I refuse to fit into your mold!!! I don't have a Spanish surname, and I sure as hell don't speak with Spanish accented English!!! My father is white, and my mother is Mexican; what's the problem?!?! The problem here is that people don't get out much! Where I'm from, California, whites and Mexicans often mix. The end result of this mix is often a family, and children! This is common in California, Arizona, Nevada, New Mexico, and Texas. How is it that people in Oregon haven't figured this out? And, another thing, Latin America is as diverse as the U.S.... How is this? You ever see a black Latino? If you watch MLB baseball, you've seen plenty of Latinos play, even black Latinos! Remember Sammy Sousa? He's Dominican! In Latin America, Latinos come in all shapes and colours! There are white Latinos (Ever been to Spain?), black Latinos, Mestizo Latinos (the brown ones!!!), and even Asian Latinos! If you've been to Peru, there are lots of Chinese and Japanese Latinos! One of the former Prime Ministers of Peru, Alberto Fujimorii, is of Japanese ancestry! But, he's also Latino!!! Hey, Portland... it's time to get a clue!!! Latinos do not, and will not fit into your preconceived mold!!! If they won't, why should I?!?! Sorry, but I'm from a mixed race family, and I refuse to conform to your preconceived opinions!!!

Portlanders are too thin-skinned!

Greetings from Occupied Metro Portland...

My 2 year anniversary is fast approaching, and it's not something I'm not looking forward to. I have discovered that I really hate Portland. I have never seen so many closed-minded people in one place, and at one time!!! The people here pride themselves on being "progressive minded..." I have to constantly remind them that there is no "progress" in socialism, only regress! They hate that, hate it with a passion!!! In fact, they try to correct me, saying that they're doing this for the good of mankind... spare me!!! I tell them, that if they realise their dreams, they're only going to be brushed aside by communists, treated as useful idiots. When I tell them they're useful idiots, they also get mad, saying they're not idiots! I tell them, this is what the communist Lenin called "progressives;" progressives do all the work, and the communists simply steal it out from under them. I have history on my side. Anyway, enough of those fucktards, they're useless!

I finally married my High School sweetheart Toni on 22 December 2011. I left my ex Elena for Toni; my life hasn't been the same since. I found out that I had ADHD, and through Toni's mom, I've been receiving care for it. Now, I've gotten better, but I'm still having issues with it. At least now, I'm getting meds for it, but I think that I might have to seek counselling. But, we shall see. Toni has been the best thing that has happened to me; I am so madly in love with her! Toni loves me, and I love her; no one is going to stop that! Though, in the beginning of our second time around, there were those here in Portland that were on the side of Toni's ex Bob. Bob, had started some major shit with his friends, and it caused us issues. I was able to contain a lot of the damage, and change opinions about us. So, we've survived this, and even Bob accepted us. We're on good terms with him now, and even sometimes help him if he asks.

Anyway, back to Portland. I recently started working at Providence Portland Hospital. Normally, I'm very bombastic, and very outgoing. I was working on a UPS install in the ICU, and had to wait for the drivers to install. I moved from under the counter, and was achy due to several broken bones. Anyway, I came up, and I was moaning as I came up. A nurse asked me if I was ok, and I told her that I was. She asked me how it happened, so I told her. Granted, it took about 5 minutes to tell her, but she didn't say that she wasn't interested. The only thing I did wrong, was that I was a bit loud (if you've known me for any length of time, you'll know that I'm usually loud, but I can be very quiet!). Wow, what a whiny bitch... I'm just so tired of Portland! I'm interested in moving away from here, but I don't have the money to move away!!!
Toni says that we can move away, but I told her that I need my certs!

Anyway, enough from me, I'm done!

Greetings from the Pacific Northwest...

Life has gotten better! It's been rough, but things have gotten better! My credit has gotten better; in fact, it's improved by 100 points! I've been working on getting my ADHD under control, but it has been difficult. I still don't have medical insurance, so I still use the County Public Health clinic for my primary care. Luckily, the majority of my medications cost less than $4 a month. My Adderall, that's a different story. It used to cost me $138 a month for the 25mg extended release capsule. I've had my doctor change it over to the 15mg immediate release. Now, I take 30mg a day, but 2x daily. My biggest problem now, is learning how to control my impulsive behaviour! Now, don't get me wrong, some of my impulsive behaviour is part of who I am, and I don't want to change all of that. Just the parts where I tend to shout out things that I shouldn't, or do the things that I shouldn't. I'm tired of regretting saying or doing things that I shouldn't!

I have filed for divorce... Well, actually, I filed back in April. I was unable to pay to serve Elena because I was out of work. Now, I have paid to have her served, and it's been 30 days since she was properly served. Now, I have moved for a default judgement of dissolution of my marriage. Luckily, we have no assets, so the dissolution will be easier. So now, I have to wait 3 more weeks to see if the judge will waive the 90 day period, and move for dissolution. Elena never responded (well, she has no way to get up here... Ian is too much of a cheap ass to take her...), and now we're at this point. I have to figure out a child support payment from up here, so I can take it with me to Sacramento on 18 November. The support order should be issued from up here, because I live up here. If I can get Julian to move up here, I won't have to pay so much. The problem with that, is that that he's under the influence of his mother. He says that she doesn't say anything about me, but I know Elena better than they do!

My children, sadly, are under the influence of my ex, and unless I'm down there to counter her influence, I've lost them. When I am around them, I can affect their minds, influence them! I don't want to control their thoughts like Elena does, I'd rather they use their own minds, and see what she has done. When I start to make better money, they're going to see that I had to take time to recover from all of her economic sabotage.
Then, I can be in a better position to assist them. I already told them that if they want me to help them to go to college, either they're going to have to come up here, or go to Stanford. Those are the only options that I told them I would pay for...

But, before I can pay for college, I have to wait to complete my certification program. It's been difficult, but I'm working to persevere, to finish the course. Right now, I've been laid off from my courier job, and it stems from the impulse control caused by the ADHD. With the Adderall, I can focus, but the impulse control is a different matter. If I can't get that under control, I may apply for SSI; it's not something that I want to do, but I need to do something!!! At least I'll be able to qualify for medical insurance issued by the state, and I'd be able to pay for my meds. I don't want to live like this!!! I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO CONTROL MY IMPULSES, OR ELSE I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO HOLD DOWN A JOB!!!

This has always been a problem for me! It got me into trouble when I was in the service. It got me into trouble when I was in school, and gets me into trouble at work. My mother says it's my mouth that gets me into trouble. I wish that were the case, but there's more to it than such a simplistic thing. It stems back to impulse control, or rather my lack of it. Since moving up here, I have gotten better at learning to control it. The biggest pitfall, is being able to interpret people. I can read people, but sometimes, I misinterpret people.
What do I mean; simple, I have a tendency to treat everyone the same, even people that I don't know. Instead of getting to know people, I tend to open up too soon, and buddy up to people. People misinterpret this, and think I'm weird because of it. I need to learn how to be aloof again, learn to keep people at a distance until they get to know me. I don't have a problem meeting people, quite the contrary... I'm very approachable, and likeable. But, I tend to polarise people as well. You either like me, or you don't; no middle ground with me.

Enough about me... I've said what I wanted, now I'm done...

My family...

Greetings from the Pacific Northwest...

It's been awhile since I posted, but I haven't had much to say. What I have been saying has been said on Facebook. It cost me some friends, but oh well!!! I had to say what I had to say, and no one is going to stop me from saying it. So, let me tell you a little bit about my family...

I was born in Oakland, CA in 1968 to David and Magdalena Freeman. But, unfortunately for me, both of my parents were (and still are...) selfish, a part of the so called "me" generation. Living for the moment, not caring about tomorrow, free love, etc. According to my mother, my dad was bisexual, and according to my father, my mother was (still is...) a bitch. They married in 1968, and divorced in 1972. My dad didn't remarry until 1984, and my mom remarried in 1972 after her divorce was finalised.

She married some loser from Southern CA named Neil S. Moore. He was in the Army at the time, stationed out at Ft. Hood. He ended up stealing a car in Texas, was arrested, and sent to prison for 3 years; TDC didn't notify the Army, and upon release from TDC, he was taken into custody, court-martialed, confined for 6 months more, and discharged with a Bad Conduct Discharge from the Army. Oh well! He came home to my mom, and she took him back. Anyway, while he was readjusting to civilian life, he made me lunch one day. I wouldn't eat it (it tasted nasty!!! Sorry, I won't eat shit!!!), and I got my ass beaten for it. I had been beaten so bad, I had to go to the hospital for treatment (he left bad bruises...). My mom tossed him out on his ass (as far as I knew...), and I went to stay with my grandmother.

Whilst with my grandmother, I would be further tormented by my aunt (whom I love deeply, and I'm very angry with her at the moment for siding with my mother!!!), and my uncles. My aunt Z has 2 kids, but at the time, Adrian was little, and wasn't up and around. I was 5 years old, and an ADHD child. Back then, I don't think they had a name for it; but I was tortured for being born with it. I was talkative, hyperactive, impulsive, and inattentive. I didn't listen too well to anyone, and as a result, I would receive endless ass beatings. At the time, I had annoyed the hell out of my aunt and uncle so much, they had bound my hands together with masking tape, and taped my mouth shut. I was then put into the broom closet, and let out periodically if I was quiet. That didn't last long. This would go on for several weeks whilst I was in kindergarten. And my mother wonders why I hate her.

Fast forward to 1977... I had to go stay with my Aunt Z and her husband at Mather AFB in Rancho Cordova, CA for the summer. My cousin Adrian, by now, had turned into a malicious child. He would get into all kinds of mischief, and I would get the blame. And of course, I would receive the always present, but never wanted, ass beating. But, with my uncle Ron, I would receive more than my fair share; in fact, I would get my ass beaten everyday by my uncle just because. And, he'd do it with a whiffle ball bat! Finally, after being beaten repeatedly, I had decided that I had had enough. My uncle was an avid model builder, and would hang the completed project from the ceiling, or place it on a bookshelf. I had decided that I would be destructive, and I would take out all my anger on his models. I seem to recall that there were at least 20 finished projects around the house. I took his whiffle ball bat, and proceeded to smash all of the models, both hanging and on the bookshelf! Did I care about the consequences? No! I had figured that since I got my ass beaten everyday anyway, what difference did it make? My aunt, apparently, hasn't forgiven me.

Back to my mother... It turns out, that my mother is somewhat of a promiscuous woman. She went through men back then faster than I could change my shorts. It was not uncommon for her to have at least 2 boyfriends a year when I was younger. But, there were several she had that I did like. Like Wayne, and Bob, and Steve, and Jimmy, and Randy, and finally, Don. Ah Don! Why did you have to go and die?!?! Oh, she had her share of losers as well; the biggest one I remember was this dickhead named Al. He managed an apartment complex on Church Ave. in Sacramento. I only lived there with my mother for the summer; and I hated it! Al, made no attempt to hide the fact that he didn't like me. I can have that affect on people; you either like me, or you don't like me... There's no middle ground there. Anyway, I spent the summer of 1978 locked away in my room. It was a nice room, but a cage is still a cage, no matter how guilded the bars are. Al would send me outside for hours, and I'd take advantage of that. I wouldn't come home until dark. My mother asked me recently if I had something to do with Al getting robbed; Mom, I was only 10 years old!!! How the fuck am I going to have something to do with that?!?! Whatever...

Then, there were my many cousins. First off, there's Adrian and Dusty...my Aunt Z's kids. As I said earlier, Adrian was malicious! If I wasn't there, he'd get the brunt of the ass beatings. And, when his brother got older, they both got them; at least until Aunt Z moved away from Ron... Next, there's Pancho and Pete. Pancho was always the troublemaker. Pete on the other hand, was the one that had a hard time in school, but did the best he could. I got along fairly well with Pancho, until he'd get us into trouble. Then, the ass beatings would happen. As well as the beatings, I would end up fighting Pancho's battles. After a couple of years of that, I got tired of that, and communicated with his adversaries that I want no part of his actions. They agreed, and ambushed Pancho. He got his just dessert, and he ran home to tattle on me. Of course, I got my ass beaten for not helping Pancho. Even after explaining why I did what I did, the excuse was that he was family, and we don't abandon family. Fast forward to 1985-1986...Pete moves in with my mom and I. I was an only child, and wasn't used to this. I gave him hell, and that wasn't fair of me. Luckily, he graduated, joined the Army, and hasn't looked back. He's doing well now, living in San Diego. Pancho, hates his brother.

Since we're still in 1985, I think I've told the story of what happened between Toni and I. We had each other for such a short time; but, we loved one another passionately in the time we had. We never had sex back then, but we were close! Again, I hate my mother for breaking us up...bitch!!! If we had been allowed to stay together and grow, I think things would have been different. My life wouldn't have been so difficult.

Now, fast forward to 1989. I've returned from the Far East, and I'm sowing my wild oats; fucking women every chance I get! I was still hurting over losing Toni (yes, it happened in '85, but pain like that lasts a long time; it also inspires poets to write love poems!!!), and my mother then introduced me to Elena. My mother said that this should make up for her breaking Toni and I up, and to stop whining about it. At first, Elena was attractive. But, as time went on, I saw the inner her. And, from what I saw, I really didn't like what I saw. She was incredibly selfish, self-centered, narcissistic, and petty. I wasn't allowed to have female friends whilst I was around Elena. She was so insecure, that she would assume that I was having sex with my female friends (well, I did have a few friends with benefits, but that wasn't until later...). In July of 1991, right before Ian was born, Elena and I were at Birdcage Theatre. We were waiting to go into the theatre, when I saw Toni again, for the first time since High School. She called my name 3 times, and finally shouted "Hey, dumbass!!!" I immediately turned, and saw her. She was pushing a stroller towards me, as Elena returned to me. Elena looked over, and saw Toni...Toni stopped, stared at me with sad eyes, and just stood there. I looked at her, and wondered what she was doing. Elena meanwhile, wraps her arm around my waist, and makes sure that Toni sees this. Elena then asks me who that bitch was; I told her, promptly...she isn't a bitch, that's Toni! Elena replied, oh, really? She's cute; I guess you do have good taste in women after all... After that, whenever Elena and I would argue (which was constant...), Elena would bring up the fact that I was still pining away for Toni, or that I was a loser for still thinking about Toni, or how I should just grow up and forget about her. And the one that would piss me off the most...so, how's the search for Toni going? Little did she know, I knew where Toni lived...but, I operated under the assumption that Toni hated me for dumping her. Little did I know, that she was still in love with me! Oh, if only I could go back into time, and change our past!!!

Then, there are my kids... Ian, Julian, and Brianna. Ian, was born in 1991 in Sacramento. He's a good kid, but he's made some dumb choices. His mother has only exacerbated this by pandering to him. At one point, he was enrolled in Options for Youth; an independent study program that met weekly. He didn't want to do the work; Elena did it for him! So, it was discovered that all the course work that Ian had submitted was reviewed, and discarded! He was subsequently dismissed from this program because he had committed academic fraud! He still hasn't graduated from HS. Julian well, he's doing well (at least that's what they tell me...). He got into Del Campo HS (Ian had tried to get in, but due to poor attendance, they refused to admit him...) without too much trouble. It didn't hurt that he had went to Will Rogers Middle School, a feeder school of DC. Since he's the middle child, he doesn't get enough attention from Elena. Elena pays attention mostly to Ian or Brianna, leaving Julian to fend for himself. When I was there, I would hang out with Julian. I tried to anyway. Finally, there's my daughter, Brianna. I love her, but she's an ADHD child, just like her father...I have tried to tell Elena that Brianna needs to get the evaluation done, but Elena balks at the idea. Elena also balks at the idea that she has undiagnosed mental health issues. Brianna is a smart kid, but she has a hard time getting along with other kids. This is a source of contention for her; I hated seeing her always upset because she didn't really have friends. I'm not there anymore, so I really don't have any influence on the situation.

Well, there you have it...mi familia loca!!! Now you understand why I am the way I am...at least on some level...