Greetings from the Pacific Northwest...
I have been here since the 16th of April, and I'm madly in love with my girl, Toni...I have been in love with her since 1983. That means that I've been in love with her for 27 years...why is this important you ask? Well, I allowed my mother to tear me away from Toni in 1985, and I went on a downward spiral. I went out of my way to destroy myself, and I was only successful in hurting only myself. I should have spent that time figuring out why I was forced to break up with Toni, and trying to find her instead. Instead of finding her, she ended hooking up with a string of losers...her first man, the one immediately after me, Tom, abused her, and knocked her up with her first child Mike. Don't get me wrong, Mike is a good kid, but every time I see him, I'm reminded of how I fucked up, and let her get away from me. I shouldn't feel like this, but I do!!! Why do I feel like this? Why do I feel so guilty about Mike? I feel guilty because I let her get away, and she had Mike with Tom.
There was so much that we had wanted to do together back then. We (well, she...I was dragged into it, but I didn't mind; I was in love with her!!!) had planned to get married, and do great things together. Now, it's 27 years later, and I'm not so sure that I'll be able to accomplish all that I had wanted to do together with Toni. I have had a hard time up here in Oregon as far as work is concerned. I have found work, but work isn't consistent due to the economy. I'm going to have to get re-certified once I start working in a full-time position. The hard part will be locating a full-time position. She has been stressed out over the loss of work, but I've been able to be of some comfort to her. I have a job interview on Wednesday in Beaverton...I'm confident that this time, I will get this job...
When work begins, I want to get things squared away financially first. I have a lot of student debt that I need to clear up first. Once I finish paying down some of this debt, I have to go back to school. I want to finish up the transfer credits that I started for the second BS degree. Only need 28 credits to finish, or I've only completed 28 credits. Always get that confused...anyway, I don't have much to finish, and once I finish those transfer credits, I transfer to PSU to finish my BS, then my Masters. I'm hoping that I don't find this one idiot at PSU because if I do, I'm going to slap the shit out of him...
This guy, posted some racist comments on Toni's Facebook page. All this stems from her recent breakup with her ex, Bob. She said that "last night, Thai, tonight Mexican..." She was, of course, referring to food. This idiot, John Gorman, made the off colour comment. "I thought you were having Mexican every night..." That really pissed me off, so much so in fact, that I wanted to find this idiot, and beat the shit out of him. I found out that he works at PSU's bookstore. I started to taunt him on my Facebook page, but one of Toni's friends happens to like this asshole, and got mad at Toni and I over it. Well, Toni deleted my posts using my account (I was a little pissed, but it was Toni, and I can't stay mad at her...regardless of the reason! I love her that much!!!), and tried to apoligise to her friend over it. Hell, I tried to apoligise to her, but she didn't want to hear it. No matter, time heals all wounds, and hopefully, she'll forgive me.
Back to Toni. I'm 41 years old, and I'm not sure how much time I have left on this planet, but I do know that I want to spend as much time as possible with her. I told her that when we got back together, I wanted to hit the ground running. We have, but, we ran straight into a wall. It's going to be ok, though. She's not going back to Bob, and I'm sure as hell not going back to CA until I have my second MIS degree. My plan is to start a network solutions firm here in Portland, and have Toni work with me as the firm's accountant. She wants to do this with me, and I'm pretty excited about this! She has a vested interest in this, because she'd directly benefit from whatever proceeds we make from this venture. I only want us to finally make it together. That's all I ever wanted for us to do. Yes, I know that I was dragged into this, but I was willing to be dragged by her. This is what I've wanted for us all along!
I've loved her for a long time, and if all goes well, I'm going to be able to do a much better job of providing for her. I've wanted a family with her for a long time, and now, hopefully, we'll have that chance. Only thing we'll have to wait for is the completion of our divorces. Once those are finalised, we can finally get married, and live the life that we wanted long ago.
Aaron M. Freeman
Monday, May 31, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
More about her ex...
Greetings from the Pacific Northwest...
I just read more from Bob's FB page, and I can't help myself! I'm laughing my ass off!!! He seems to think that he'll sell the house he and Toni bought together. Yeah, right!!! I used to flip houses in Sacramento, and I've looked at their house. The house, in Sacramento, is only worth $220k. In order to sell that house, he's going to need to put at least $50k in Sacramento dollars to sell that house in Sacramento. In Portland, it's worth $180k, and it's gonna need at least $35k to $38k to flip that house. It has landscape issues (at least $12k's worth...), driveway issues (depending on how you prepare the driveway, that'll cost you $5k...), paint issues (that'll cost at least $10k...), roofing issues ($5k...), and a number of other things. He also seems to think that he can get a holiday from the bank to sell the house. Dude, have you been smoking what Romeo has been filling his litter box with, or what? The bank wants its money, plain and simple. They're not going to let you take a holiday from paying on the mortgage...what's wrong with you? Sure, there are plenty of programs out there to assist you in paying your mortgage should you need the assistance. But the bank wants to get paid.
He thinks he can sell it as a distressed property. He's got that right! It is distressed, and he was the cause of the distress in the first place. Him and my girl (unfortunately...) were both equally responsible for the distress, but it can't be helped. What's done is done. He isn't going to get even half of the mortgage for that house. The bank won't accept that, and he needs to learn that. Sure, he may sell the house for dirt cheap, but he'll still have to pay off the balance of the note. Sorry, but there will be no relief from the obligation of your loan. The only thing that you can do really, is to let Toni buy you out of the mortgage. You sign a quick claim release on any obligation to the house, and away you go! Free and clear from any obligations to Toni or the house.
The sad part of this whole sad affair, is that Toni is the only one in that relationship that was working. Again, he was unemployed for over a year, and refused to find anything but IT. He wasn't willing to go to school, and get his IT certifications. He thought that he could get by with just experience. Me, I could get away with that, but not him...he doesn't have my experience. He also doesn't have my education either. Toni told him, but he refused to listen...and that's the main reason why Toni wanted to leave him. He thinks that I was the sole reason for her departure, but what he doesn't or refuses to understand, is that what if I wasn't here? She would have still left him in June regardless of whether I was here or not... Sorry Bob, but you were measured, and were found to be sorely lacking. How many times do I have to tell you, but you're not her type, and you never were...remember intellectual equality? Not even close!!!
Aaron M. Freeman
I just read more from Bob's FB page, and I can't help myself! I'm laughing my ass off!!! He seems to think that he'll sell the house he and Toni bought together. Yeah, right!!! I used to flip houses in Sacramento, and I've looked at their house. The house, in Sacramento, is only worth $220k. In order to sell that house, he's going to need to put at least $50k in Sacramento dollars to sell that house in Sacramento. In Portland, it's worth $180k, and it's gonna need at least $35k to $38k to flip that house. It has landscape issues (at least $12k's worth...), driveway issues (depending on how you prepare the driveway, that'll cost you $5k...), paint issues (that'll cost at least $10k...), roofing issues ($5k...), and a number of other things. He also seems to think that he can get a holiday from the bank to sell the house. Dude, have you been smoking what Romeo has been filling his litter box with, or what? The bank wants its money, plain and simple. They're not going to let you take a holiday from paying on the mortgage...what's wrong with you? Sure, there are plenty of programs out there to assist you in paying your mortgage should you need the assistance. But the bank wants to get paid.
He thinks he can sell it as a distressed property. He's got that right! It is distressed, and he was the cause of the distress in the first place. Him and my girl (unfortunately...) were both equally responsible for the distress, but it can't be helped. What's done is done. He isn't going to get even half of the mortgage for that house. The bank won't accept that, and he needs to learn that. Sure, he may sell the house for dirt cheap, but he'll still have to pay off the balance of the note. Sorry, but there will be no relief from the obligation of your loan. The only thing that you can do really, is to let Toni buy you out of the mortgage. You sign a quick claim release on any obligation to the house, and away you go! Free and clear from any obligations to Toni or the house.
The sad part of this whole sad affair, is that Toni is the only one in that relationship that was working. Again, he was unemployed for over a year, and refused to find anything but IT. He wasn't willing to go to school, and get his IT certifications. He thought that he could get by with just experience. Me, I could get away with that, but not him...he doesn't have my experience. He also doesn't have my education either. Toni told him, but he refused to listen...and that's the main reason why Toni wanted to leave him. He thinks that I was the sole reason for her departure, but what he doesn't or refuses to understand, is that what if I wasn't here? She would have still left him in June regardless of whether I was here or not... Sorry Bob, but you were measured, and were found to be sorely lacking. How many times do I have to tell you, but you're not her type, and you never were...remember intellectual equality? Not even close!!!
Aaron M. Freeman
Monday, May 24, 2010
her ex...
Greetings from the Pacific Northwest...
I'm furious at the moment! Why am I furious? Because of Toni's soon to be ex-husband, Bob!!! He's whining, yet again!!! He just can't get over the fact that he lost Toni, and how his little world has collapsed! He blames her for this, of course, but there are always two sides to every story. This story starts back in the late 90's, when Toni was in CA, dealing with some loser she called "The Evil One..." Apparently, he had mental health issues, and was causing her some grief. So, her mom and step dad moved to Grant's Pass. Toni, of course, followed mom, taking her son with her.
Where was I? Well, I was busy wallowing in self-pity after losing Toni some time before, and trying to earn a living in San Jose. I had to finish my degree, and find a job within my field (I'm an IT guy by trade...) soon! So, I found work in SJ, and proceeded to forget about my one true love. Little did I know, that she was in Sacramento, dealing with all this shit within her personal life. The irony is that our paths crossed on numerous occasions...hell, we may have even seen each other, and not even realised it. Damn, I'm still kicking myself in the ass over that! If only I had known how she felt about me back then, we'd have been together a lot sooner.
Well, she started dating guys in the Medford area, and she picked a few losers. That lasted for awhile, at least until she met Bob. She met him while chatting on an IRC channel. He, just a few weeks ago, accused me of preying on a married woman. How dare he! Who does he think he is? A saint? I don't think so! He met her in a chat room...isn't that the kind of thing that sexual predators do? Or, pedophiles? No matter, he somehow hooked up with the love of my life, and violated her in many ways (he won't see it as such, but it was a violation of sorts...). I'll never understand how she hooked up with some toad!!! Ugh!
She finally agreed to marry this toad on 15 September 2001. If I had known where she was getting married, I would have shown up, and disrupted the ceremony. I know that she would have dumped his toady ass like a hot potato, even after being absent from her life for several years. She was my soul mate, even from that far back. I spent years abusing myself, and trying to destroy myself over losing her. You might think that I'm crazy for wasting so much time on Toni for so long, but you have to understand...she was the one; my one true love, the love of my life!!! My mother made me give her up all because she somehow found out that Toni had betrothed herself to me. Toni also wanted to consumate our relationship, but my mother had found out. My mother was jealous of her 16 year old son's lovelife. Whatever; I suffered for her petty jealosy.
I would have found her sooner, but I chose to go back to war. I went back into the service, and went overseas again. I ended up getting hurt yet again, and mentally tearing myself apart yet again. Meanwhile, she was trying to make a life with this toad. She says she was happy at the time, but I told her that I didn't believe her for a minute. She told me that Bob was nice to her, and paid attention to her, at least until he got her to move in with her. Then, things changed. See, she likes RPGs, and Bob doesn't particularly like them. I guess fantasy gaming isn't his cup of tea, but living a fantasy is. Takes all kinds...anyway, she went to work, earned a living, and tried to give a good life for her son. Bob, at least the impression I get from him, really didn't like Mike, and made it difficult for Mike. Bob, has kids from a previous marriage, and not all of them are successful in the game of Life. Take his son, Rob, for example. He's 35 years old, and never strayed far from the nest. He lives with his dad, and doesn't pay rent; his dad doesn't make him pay rent either. He hasn't held a real job either, but has managed to collect unemployment for God knows how long. Bob, for some reason, decided that Rob was a failure, and because of this, he was going to make Mike's life miserable. Unfortunately, Toni didn't get on Bob's ass enough about that... If I were Toni, and I knew he was doing this to my son, I'd have killed him...
Fast forward to 2006...years of pretending that she loved this guy has taken a toll on her. She let herself go (face it, whenever you're involved in a long term relationship, you do let yourself go...I'm no exception!!! I blimped out to 250!!!). She wasn't in a good place; her son had graduated high school, and he had joined the Army. He did what I did; he wanted to fight...to be part of the action. But, like me, he was disappointed by the very system that he signed up to serve. So typical...someone so young used by the military, only to be disappointed. Anyway, she let herself go, and wasn't feeling very good about herself. She went to her high school reunion, and dragged Bob along. Not long after the reunion, I started hearing about her reunion from friends in her class (she graduated in 1986, and I in 87...of course I'm going to know people in her class, I used to party with a lot of them!!!) that she had indeed, gone to her reunion. The sad part? They all called her husband, a toad!!! Friends badgerd me about why I let her get away from me, and the toad she was with. It was at this time I had decided to find her, and set the record straight about what happened in 1985, and maybe be a part of her life again...
I quickly located where she was living, but unfortunately, I was a bit of a coward. I didn't make an attempt to contact her, but I did drive a truck for awhile, and I did drive by her house and her job while in the Portland area. I had the impression that she wouldn't want anything to do with me. How wrong I was! Secretly, she was miserable, feeling that there was something missing in her life. I too, was feeling miserable, feeling as if there was something missing in my life. So, I decided to fill that void with extramarital affairs. While driving a taxi, I met lots of women, not all of them unattractive. I was feeling very lonely, my wife was ignoring me, and feeling sorry for herself. So, I took up with several women, and ended up still feeling empty and alone. I started taking drugs again, but this didn't do me any good either. The only benefit from my drug use was that I was able to concentrate long enough to finish up another associates' degree. I had planned on getting a second BS in computer science, moving towards a Law degree.
Meanwhile, I still felt empty and alone, even though I was married. There was no love in my relationship...not that it was all bad; it wasn't! Toni was being ignored by Bob, for whatever reason. She says it was health related (he did have some health issues relating to a heart attack, diabetes, and a gall bladder...), but I think that he just lost interest. Diabetes can do a number on your body if you don't take care of it, and watch your blood sugar. But, if you're careful, exercise,
check your blood sugar at least twice a day, and take your medication (hollistic or otherwise...), you can live a fruitful and full life. Can't blame lack of sex on Diabetes...oh no, not so!!! I'm a horn dog, and I'm diabetic. I'm such a horn dog, my girl has a hard time sometimes keeping up with me. So, no, Diabetes can't be the reason. Personally, I think he just lost interest in Toni. How sad, because Toni is so cool! She's so giving, and passionate! I love how she loves me!
On the day that Bob threw Toni out (mind you, he did throw her out, I saw the emails that he sent to Toni...I was chatting with her the night it happened!!!), we were chatting about life, and how I was going to go to Portland for a few job interviews. She said that she was going to help me out insofar as helping me to get established here. Bob helped her out, and she wanted to extend that courtesy to me. In fact, she told Bob about me, and told him how I was coming up here for work. She asked him if she could help me out. He flat out said no. Personally, I could understand why; I am a handsome devil, and I'm good with the ladies! Anyway, I posted things on my Facebook page in reference to my upcoming meeting with Toni. I had stated that I was meeting destiny. I was meeting my one true love again. Well, it was true...she's my one true love, and I'm not going to change how I feel about her now. So what if I love her? She was married, and I was going to respect that, albeit begrudgingly...he's a toad, and toads end up getting flattened on the road. He read my page, demanded to know who I was, and she told him.
She told him that I had searched her out, and that we had been an item in high school. He made the stretch, and assumed (wrongly...) that she wanted to have an affair with me. So, he was going to some stupid disc golf thing in Roseburg, OR, and he told her to that she needed to be gone by Sunday the 17th.
The 15th of April did come, and yes, I did come face to face with destiny. That was the day that I rescued the love of my life from a less than mediocre relationship. I make no bones about saving her, but I will say that I didn't come here with the express intention of taking her away from Bob; he made that assumption, and lost out. Now, he tells his loser friends that I took her away from him. How she was planning on leaving him in June (well, she told me that if they lost their house, she was going to leave him. She had planned on leaving him in June, only because he had been unemployed for over a year, and wasn't doing anything to fill the void. I had taken work outside of the IT field on numerous occasions, hell I even got my class A CDL just in case!!!), and how she chose adultery over her relationship. The only affair that we had was an emotional affair, I'll admit that! But, if it wasn't me, it would have been someone else. Better me than yet another loser to take advantage of her.
So, now we're living in Milwaukie, OR, and we have our own place. The only hardships that we've experienced have been the loss of my cat, Milo. He decided that he needed to answer the call of nature, and jumped of the balcony to find a mate...money has been tight, but that's not a problem. I had a job driving a limo, but we both screwed that up (not to worry, my boss says that I just needed to get my shit together...no more moving stuff on days that I have to work.). I'm not holding her responsible for that; it's my responsibility. I also drove a taxi again, but that quickly went down the toilet. The car that I had was the biggest piece of shit I have ever driven! No worries! I have a job interview this week with a tech job; a network admin job...my kind of work. I'm not afraid to take whatever job I have to take. As long as it helps my girl, that's all that matters. I'm not pussy whipped either...we just work together, as a relationship should be. We're very open with each other as far as communication is concerned. I just want the truth to be told by her ex. I want him to finally stop lying about the end of his relationship, and the reasons why it ended in the first place. As soon as he can come to grips with this, he can move on with his life.
On a final note, he has met up with Toni on more than a few occasions. Two of which I was present for. The first one, he walked past me, not realising who I was. I followed him inside Albertson's in Beaverton, and waited for him to meet up with Toni. The funny thing was that he insisted on meeting her without me. And that if I was there, the meeting was off...well, Bob, I was there. By the way, what was that you bought? Was it water? I really didn't pay that much attention to it. I did know what you were wearing. That fluorescent yellow cap was annoying to look at, as well as your beard. Dude, shave that thing already! I was also present for the second meeting at your house. I was watching you from inside your blackberry bushes. You should try to relax, dude, because you'll give yourself another heart attack. Also, try to be nice to my girl next time, because I really don't appreciate how you spoke with Toni. Yes, I'm dangerous, but only when necessary. Have a nice life, Bob...enjoy your less than mediocre life...
Aaron M. Freeman
I'm furious at the moment! Why am I furious? Because of Toni's soon to be ex-husband, Bob!!! He's whining, yet again!!! He just can't get over the fact that he lost Toni, and how his little world has collapsed! He blames her for this, of course, but there are always two sides to every story. This story starts back in the late 90's, when Toni was in CA, dealing with some loser she called "The Evil One..." Apparently, he had mental health issues, and was causing her some grief. So, her mom and step dad moved to Grant's Pass. Toni, of course, followed mom, taking her son with her.
Where was I? Well, I was busy wallowing in self-pity after losing Toni some time before, and trying to earn a living in San Jose. I had to finish my degree, and find a job within my field (I'm an IT guy by trade...) soon! So, I found work in SJ, and proceeded to forget about my one true love. Little did I know, that she was in Sacramento, dealing with all this shit within her personal life. The irony is that our paths crossed on numerous occasions...hell, we may have even seen each other, and not even realised it. Damn, I'm still kicking myself in the ass over that! If only I had known how she felt about me back then, we'd have been together a lot sooner.
Well, she started dating guys in the Medford area, and she picked a few losers. That lasted for awhile, at least until she met Bob. She met him while chatting on an IRC channel. He, just a few weeks ago, accused me of preying on a married woman. How dare he! Who does he think he is? A saint? I don't think so! He met her in a chat room...isn't that the kind of thing that sexual predators do? Or, pedophiles? No matter, he somehow hooked up with the love of my life, and violated her in many ways (he won't see it as such, but it was a violation of sorts...). I'll never understand how she hooked up with some toad!!! Ugh!
She finally agreed to marry this toad on 15 September 2001. If I had known where she was getting married, I would have shown up, and disrupted the ceremony. I know that she would have dumped his toady ass like a hot potato, even after being absent from her life for several years. She was my soul mate, even from that far back. I spent years abusing myself, and trying to destroy myself over losing her. You might think that I'm crazy for wasting so much time on Toni for so long, but you have to understand...she was the one; my one true love, the love of my life!!! My mother made me give her up all because she somehow found out that Toni had betrothed herself to me. Toni also wanted to consumate our relationship, but my mother had found out. My mother was jealous of her 16 year old son's lovelife. Whatever; I suffered for her petty jealosy.
I would have found her sooner, but I chose to go back to war. I went back into the service, and went overseas again. I ended up getting hurt yet again, and mentally tearing myself apart yet again. Meanwhile, she was trying to make a life with this toad. She says she was happy at the time, but I told her that I didn't believe her for a minute. She told me that Bob was nice to her, and paid attention to her, at least until he got her to move in with her. Then, things changed. See, she likes RPGs, and Bob doesn't particularly like them. I guess fantasy gaming isn't his cup of tea, but living a fantasy is. Takes all kinds...anyway, she went to work, earned a living, and tried to give a good life for her son. Bob, at least the impression I get from him, really didn't like Mike, and made it difficult for Mike. Bob, has kids from a previous marriage, and not all of them are successful in the game of Life. Take his son, Rob, for example. He's 35 years old, and never strayed far from the nest. He lives with his dad, and doesn't pay rent; his dad doesn't make him pay rent either. He hasn't held a real job either, but has managed to collect unemployment for God knows how long. Bob, for some reason, decided that Rob was a failure, and because of this, he was going to make Mike's life miserable. Unfortunately, Toni didn't get on Bob's ass enough about that... If I were Toni, and I knew he was doing this to my son, I'd have killed him...
Fast forward to 2006...years of pretending that she loved this guy has taken a toll on her. She let herself go (face it, whenever you're involved in a long term relationship, you do let yourself go...I'm no exception!!! I blimped out to 250!!!). She wasn't in a good place; her son had graduated high school, and he had joined the Army. He did what I did; he wanted to fight...to be part of the action. But, like me, he was disappointed by the very system that he signed up to serve. So typical...someone so young used by the military, only to be disappointed. Anyway, she let herself go, and wasn't feeling very good about herself. She went to her high school reunion, and dragged Bob along. Not long after the reunion, I started hearing about her reunion from friends in her class (she graduated in 1986, and I in 87...of course I'm going to know people in her class, I used to party with a lot of them!!!) that she had indeed, gone to her reunion. The sad part? They all called her husband, a toad!!! Friends badgerd me about why I let her get away from me, and the toad she was with. It was at this time I had decided to find her, and set the record straight about what happened in 1985, and maybe be a part of her life again...
I quickly located where she was living, but unfortunately, I was a bit of a coward. I didn't make an attempt to contact her, but I did drive a truck for awhile, and I did drive by her house and her job while in the Portland area. I had the impression that she wouldn't want anything to do with me. How wrong I was! Secretly, she was miserable, feeling that there was something missing in her life. I too, was feeling miserable, feeling as if there was something missing in my life. So, I decided to fill that void with extramarital affairs. While driving a taxi, I met lots of women, not all of them unattractive. I was feeling very lonely, my wife was ignoring me, and feeling sorry for herself. So, I took up with several women, and ended up still feeling empty and alone. I started taking drugs again, but this didn't do me any good either. The only benefit from my drug use was that I was able to concentrate long enough to finish up another associates' degree. I had planned on getting a second BS in computer science, moving towards a Law degree.
Meanwhile, I still felt empty and alone, even though I was married. There was no love in my relationship...not that it was all bad; it wasn't! Toni was being ignored by Bob, for whatever reason. She says it was health related (he did have some health issues relating to a heart attack, diabetes, and a gall bladder...), but I think that he just lost interest. Diabetes can do a number on your body if you don't take care of it, and watch your blood sugar. But, if you're careful, exercise,
check your blood sugar at least twice a day, and take your medication (hollistic or otherwise...), you can live a fruitful and full life. Can't blame lack of sex on Diabetes...oh no, not so!!! I'm a horn dog, and I'm diabetic. I'm such a horn dog, my girl has a hard time sometimes keeping up with me. So, no, Diabetes can't be the reason. Personally, I think he just lost interest in Toni. How sad, because Toni is so cool! She's so giving, and passionate! I love how she loves me!
On the day that Bob threw Toni out (mind you, he did throw her out, I saw the emails that he sent to Toni...I was chatting with her the night it happened!!!), we were chatting about life, and how I was going to go to Portland for a few job interviews. She said that she was going to help me out insofar as helping me to get established here. Bob helped her out, and she wanted to extend that courtesy to me. In fact, she told Bob about me, and told him how I was coming up here for work. She asked him if she could help me out. He flat out said no. Personally, I could understand why; I am a handsome devil, and I'm good with the ladies! Anyway, I posted things on my Facebook page in reference to my upcoming meeting with Toni. I had stated that I was meeting destiny. I was meeting my one true love again. Well, it was true...she's my one true love, and I'm not going to change how I feel about her now. So what if I love her? She was married, and I was going to respect that, albeit begrudgingly...he's a toad, and toads end up getting flattened on the road. He read my page, demanded to know who I was, and she told him.
She told him that I had searched her out, and that we had been an item in high school. He made the stretch, and assumed (wrongly...) that she wanted to have an affair with me. So, he was going to some stupid disc golf thing in Roseburg, OR, and he told her to that she needed to be gone by Sunday the 17th.
The 15th of April did come, and yes, I did come face to face with destiny. That was the day that I rescued the love of my life from a less than mediocre relationship. I make no bones about saving her, but I will say that I didn't come here with the express intention of taking her away from Bob; he made that assumption, and lost out. Now, he tells his loser friends that I took her away from him. How she was planning on leaving him in June (well, she told me that if they lost their house, she was going to leave him. She had planned on leaving him in June, only because he had been unemployed for over a year, and wasn't doing anything to fill the void. I had taken work outside of the IT field on numerous occasions, hell I even got my class A CDL just in case!!!), and how she chose adultery over her relationship. The only affair that we had was an emotional affair, I'll admit that! But, if it wasn't me, it would have been someone else. Better me than yet another loser to take advantage of her.
So, now we're living in Milwaukie, OR, and we have our own place. The only hardships that we've experienced have been the loss of my cat, Milo. He decided that he needed to answer the call of nature, and jumped of the balcony to find a mate...money has been tight, but that's not a problem. I had a job driving a limo, but we both screwed that up (not to worry, my boss says that I just needed to get my shit together...no more moving stuff on days that I have to work.). I'm not holding her responsible for that; it's my responsibility. I also drove a taxi again, but that quickly went down the toilet. The car that I had was the biggest piece of shit I have ever driven! No worries! I have a job interview this week with a tech job; a network admin job...my kind of work. I'm not afraid to take whatever job I have to take. As long as it helps my girl, that's all that matters. I'm not pussy whipped either...we just work together, as a relationship should be. We're very open with each other as far as communication is concerned. I just want the truth to be told by her ex. I want him to finally stop lying about the end of his relationship, and the reasons why it ended in the first place. As soon as he can come to grips with this, he can move on with his life.
On a final note, he has met up with Toni on more than a few occasions. Two of which I was present for. The first one, he walked past me, not realising who I was. I followed him inside Albertson's in Beaverton, and waited for him to meet up with Toni. The funny thing was that he insisted on meeting her without me. And that if I was there, the meeting was off...well, Bob, I was there. By the way, what was that you bought? Was it water? I really didn't pay that much attention to it. I did know what you were wearing. That fluorescent yellow cap was annoying to look at, as well as your beard. Dude, shave that thing already! I was also present for the second meeting at your house. I was watching you from inside your blackberry bushes. You should try to relax, dude, because you'll give yourself another heart attack. Also, try to be nice to my girl next time, because I really don't appreciate how you spoke with Toni. Yes, I'm dangerous, but only when necessary. Have a nice life, Bob...enjoy your less than mediocre life...
Aaron M. Freeman
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
The hatred that my woman and I have experienced...
Greetings from the Pacific Northwest. Since I've relocated to the Greater Portland area, I've experienced hatred at the hands of her ex-husband's friends. Not that I'm either worried or afraid of them. They're hippy dipshits; who can they hurt? How can they hurt me? By pissing in my tofu? Or, by pissing in my coffee? I have been insulted by racist comments, and my woman has been insulted by the same people. For so-called open minded liberals that encourage people to have affairs, they sure don't like that kind of stuff happening to them or to their friends. I love liberal hypocrisy, and all that support it. Anyway, my woman likes the sport of disc golf, and all of her ex-husband's friends play the game. Needless to say, this has caused tension between this community and us. Whatever, I really don't care. There is someone within that community that I did offend that I do like...unfortunately, because of that offence, she doesn't want anything to do with either my girl or me. The thing that I want people to understand about me is that I'm not someone that will back down from a fight...virtual or otherwise. Oh, this group posts things on Facebook, and I've also posted things there. I love poking at the liberal hornet's nest. I don't use names, but there have been times that I've used names to make direct attacks against that clique, though not always. In the direct attacks, they've been in response to either racial remarks (My girl was accused of eating Mexican on a nightly basis...), or in defence of my girl (the same idiot made smartass comments about my girl and the error of her ways...). What these idiots don't know about me is that I have no qualms about beating the shit out of someone that is willing to start shit with me. It may seem petty, but where I'm from, if someone uses either racial comments or talks trash about your girl, an ass beating is in order. If it had been as little as a year ago, I would have hunted this douche bag down, and beat his ass, but, it's 2010, and I've curbed my temper a bit. I made a promise to my girl, and I'm not going to be as abrasive to her old friends anymore. It's too bad because a lot of them have sided with that toad of an ex husband of hers. What I find amusing is that he actually thought that he deserved my girl. You should have heard all the comments I heard after her 20 year reunion. All of my friends that were in her class called her ex a "toad..." They all said that she must have been desperate, and they all asked why the hell I let her get away. Or, they all asked why we weren't married or things of that nature. No matter, when the 25 year event happens, we will be there together! And, we'll be attending my 25 year event together. This time, there won't be any mistakes, and I sure as hell won't be called a toad...
I have been here in Oregon for a month...
I came to Oregon to find work, and search for freedom. Instead, I've found more oppression in Northern Oregon than in Sacramento. I had no plans on meeting anyone here, but it turned out that my high school sweetheart, Toni Bifano, was in the Portland Area. I found her name on an online reunion site, but since I wasn't a member of the site, I couldn't exactly get her email address. Anyway, I composed an email to send to her explaining why I had to break up with her in 1985, and how sorry I was about the whole affair. I also wanted her to know how much I suffered because of that break up, and how I went on a 25 year long binge of self-destruction. I really did! I tried to get myself killed on several occasions, but someone upstairs wouldn't let me. I was told in 1985 by my aunt that I'd find her again, but I would have to get myself ready for her. It took me 8 months to finally send the message to her, plus I had to find her email address. I finally emailed her, and she didn't hate me (this is something that I had expected, her to hate me...), in fact, she forgave me for what happened. She said that life was too short to hold a grudge. This opened the door to further conversation between us. I had thought about coming to Oregon for work before, but knowing that she was here made it worth while. I had no intention of breaking up her relationship, only breaking up my relationship with my wife. I got tired of being ignored by my wife. Unfortunately, her ex took it upon himself to misinterpret my messages to Toni. I would tell her that I loved her (remember, she was the love of my life...I can't exactly turn that off, now can I?), and that I would always have feelings toward her. I told her that I would settle for her friendship instead, stating that I, at least would be back in her life...whatever, he ended up throwing Toni out, thus freeing her up to allow me to pursue her. He even went as far as saying that I was preying on a married man's woman. I got mad at him, suggesting that he was the true predator, preying on a single mom that was lonely while inside a chat room. Whatever, what's done is done. Because of the choices I've made, my ex hates me now, choosing not to talk to me ever. I'm not worried about this because I told her long ago, that if I ever found Toni again, her and I were done. I told her how I felt about Toni, and how she was the love of my life. I told my ex how Toni and I were friends before becoming a couple, and how I was forced to break up with her. Elena didn't want to know about it, choosing to take a path that would lead to the end of our relationship. Well, the end came on the 15th of April, when I reunited with my one true love. I held her tight, told her that I was sorry for all the shit I gave her...again, she forgave me; no more regrets... Since the 15th, things haven't been easy, but then again, when has anything worth having ever been easy? Instead of hating myself for so long, I should have found her much earlier, and spent all that time loving her. Now, I'm 41, and I have no idea how much time I have left on this planet, but I'm going to make the best of it. I'm going to spend the rest of my time on Earth loving her; something that I should have been allowed to do since 1985. If that had happened, we'd have been spared all the bullshit that we had to endure this past 25 years. You can call me crazy for pining away for her, but I say to you that unless you've walked in my shoes, and had the kind of love that I had for her, shut the hell up!!!
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